welcome Note
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i'm really surprised at myself.. surprised at how fast i can haf a change of heart.. i mean, there i wuz, a few days back, goin head over heels over dat gd-fer-nothin-lebo-mofo.. n now, it's all changed.. instead of tinkin abt him constantly, i'm loathin even tinkin of tinkin of him.. best of all, b4 my sinz flgt e other day, he managed to screw up my mood simply by bein there.. he juz came back fm flgt n i wuz goin.. i wuz walkin fm e other side, rite towards him coz i had to go to e customs (not coz i wanted to approach him!!) n there he wuz.. he din even acknowledge my foolish-wide-grin n simply turned to talk to some other dude! i felt so rejected n humiliated by e fact dat i wuz actually walkin wit a wide smile plastered on my face when i saw him.. sheesh.... he muz be feelin all smug abt himself.. why oh why did i hafta like him?!? how can i be so foolish?? but wateva lah.. it's a lesson learnt, i mean i had to, eventually.. n it's gd considerin it took me close to 2yrs to finally let my guards down n fall fer someone over here in dubz.. but of coz e outcome is expected.. i believe if it wuz meant fer me to find someone here, it wld haf had happened ages ago.. esp after e saga of my last rlsp.. but so far, after bein single fer 10mths now, i still dun even noe if i'm happy where i am rite now or am i gettin more desperate by e day... but actually, come to tink of it, i dun get annoyed by lookin at couples as much as i wuz last time.. sure, i haf days when i wished i had dat too but e idea rarely come across now.. guess it doesn't affect me as much.. sure, i talk abt boys all e time, but it doesn't mean i'm on e prowl (ok, maybe a lil..=P).. maybe coz i dun wanna put myself thru all e shit again.. dat's a lil bit too late (and contradictin) after fallin fer nadz, but at least i'm sensible enuf to stop.. at least i noe when enuf is enuf.. okie, i'm juz tryin to console myself there.. 
i swear dat really took my breathe away.. i admit i somehow expected e dvd but i din expect myself to be dat overwhelmed.. but of coz, i acted all cool abt it.. i mean, i din even noe how to react lah okie? part of me wanted to wrap my arms ard him coz i really, really luv dat movie n i've been tryin fer e longest time to get my hands on it.. either fm dvd stores or by downloads... managed to get e downloads but always can't open e files... neways, i spent a gd deal of my childhood, watchin e tape like almoz evryday after skool n fantasizin (totally pure imagination) abt bein in dat movie.. 
den yana drove us all to tanjong pagar, where her bf wuz havin a photoshoot fer his band, meltin snow.. a metal/rocker/hard-core kinda of band i tink.. den headed to spize to break fast.. fer those fastin, at least.. heheheh.. den, it wuz back to tjg pgr, where we ourselves had a 'photoshoot'
of our own b4 headin back to e hotel to wait fer e wake-up call.. dat wuz e worse 1hr of e whole trip man... dreaded goin back to dubz.. like totally countin down to e gd-bye.. where's e good in gd-bye!?!? seriously??! 
(he's a laydeee..)