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juz a lil insight into my world....
my rantings & musings...
nothin more, nothin less
& wat goes on in here,
stays in here...
kapish?

yep, it's a freakin looong walk, n we actually blocked off e front cabin!!

3hrs to go!!! on standby 2 rite now... 12hrs of my life bein in suspended animation!! have i eva mention dat i hate reserve!!? had my first eva airport standby yday n got called out fer jeddah.. tank god it's ramadhan, so not much ppl ate.. n on e way back, there wuz only 45 pax!!! on a 777 mind u!! so, e other 2cabins in e back were like totally empty.. has anyone heard of e crew takin 40mins break each on a jeddah?!?! dat's gotta be e sweeetest jeddah on record!! LOL!!! n it din hurt dat e crew were a nice bunch, flew wit amy again, n some other girls i've flew b4... felt bad dat amy wuz werkin so hard but it wuz juz one of my lazy days.. but i wasn't e only one newayz.. =/
so yeah, had to be at CBC by 6am.. signed in n to my horror, my name wuz like rite at e top of e list!!! damn damn damn... wat r e chances rite? i mean, i wuz e most senior so most likely i'd be pulled out fer shitty flgts... but of coz i wuz juz panickin.. hehehe.. audrey n pamz were oso there so we juz accompanied each other n started cravin fer home-style brekky.. like nasi lemak n prata telur wit kari... yummmm... there we were, a nerve-wreck, not knowin where we'd be goin n yet we were droolin over such stuff!! but i tell u, i've neva been so nervous in sucha long time, in fact, my knees went weak evrytime e counter guy came over to call out e names... my heart wuz like literally poundin!!! as if it wuz back in skool days n u were waitin fer e results or sthg...hahahaha... drama rite?? but sweet, sweet obi-wan wuz like totally layan-in me on e sms-es.. i wuz bein sucha baby n kept disturbin him wit my incessant whingins.. hehehehe...

newayz, dat wuz yday... slept so much today, been a while since i last indulged in dat n boy did it feel good!! heee... forced myself up ard 2 i tink n my batt feels flat oredi... damn, where e hell's my stamina?!? wuz online wit mr obi-wan fer more than 4hrs.. on e web-cammy n oh, i haf to mention dis b4 i forget!!! e other day, he actually printed out e 3 magic words on paper, n flashed em on e web-cammy!!! how sweet is dat? i mean, totally unexpected n totally melted me big time!!! see, he's like sucha hopeless romantic n i feel e same way ard him.. i mean, it's bad coz i've always known how to hold it back but when i'm ard him, i juz can't stop e feelin!!! like so emo n overly-sweet... it's really damn scary.. i mean, it's as if e floodgates of emotions juz fly open when i'm wit him, either in person or online lah... there's no-holds barred!!! n i dun like dat feelin coz it makes me feel so vulnerable.. as in, i'll put all e cards on e table n i dun even noe how it's gonna be dealt.... but tank god, he feels e same way.. n it's juz so bizarre how we feel so similar abt one anotha even tho we din even noe of each other's existence til only recently... man... i neva felt like dis before.. n listenin to all these romantic oldie songs ain't helpin much either! currently ol nat king cole's serenadin me wit 'when i fall in luv'... so apt.. den again, almoz all e love songs seems so apt rite now!! heh!!!!

but i wuz juz tinkin, how funny it is coz it seems dat when there's no one in yr life, there's absolutely none.. n when u do find somebody, there seems to be so many others interested in u.. like hello?! where were u guys when i wuz lonely n needed someone??!! not funny u noe.. i mean, it's oredi hard enuf to give yr heart to someone in particular but when u're surrounded by so many other interested parties, how can u make sure u chose e right one fer u?! wat shld be e basis fer e choice?! hence, anotha unsolved mystery of life...

®nonetheless, i'm pretty confident i made e right decision.. he's like a total catch, well, at least to me.. he juz makes me feel so me.. noe wat i mean? n i tink dat's e most important factor of all.. fer someone to luv u fer u n vice-versa.. n wit evry passin day, i'm fallin so much more into him.. it's definitely a scary feelin but it feels right.. so, let's keep e fingers crossed dat history's not gonna repeat itself.. wish me luck, guys!!