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juz a lil insight into my world....
my rantings & musings...
nothin more, nothin less
& wat goes on in here,
stays in here...
kapish?

rite, less than an hr to go til my standby ends... 48mins to me reclaimin back my so-called life.. hahahaha... tinkin of goin out, needa get those chocodates, e airplane model fer my daddy, hmmm, n dat's abt it... surprising hey? dat my shoppin list's dat short... hahaha.. but seriously, haven't really indulged in my fave past-time so far... been a looong while since i had some retail therapy.. maybe coz i'm kept busy nowadays wit my new toy.. heh... nope, it's not a boy, tho i do haf one n he does keep me very busy as well.. i'm talkin abt my webby-cammy... i noe, i noe, very suaku... but yeah, after nearly 2 yrs here, i've finally gotten myself a webby-cammy!!! hello, world!!! LOL!! too bad, dey bloody blocked skype over here.. so it's like watchin a silent movie.. n u hafta pay very close attention to e subtitles... =P i like my new toy so far altho i wish it cld haf lesser lags.. e frames are juz too slow but considerin my lappy, there's not much choice i haf when choosin one.. =( i luv my lappy, wit all my heart, but sometimes i feel, it's juz too troublesome... too high-maintenance, if u will.. but i'd neva trade it away, not unless it's like irrepairable (is there sucha word?) or so gone til e point of no return.. hahahah... choy!!! i luv my baby... *hugz*
neways, dat's not gonna happen anytime soon coz i noe i take really gd care of lappy-baby.. =P

anyhoos, today's e 15th oct.. n it happens to be e bifdays of 2 very sweet n special ppl in my life...

dat's afida.. she's been like e elder sista to me over here.. we worked togetha n we most definitely partied togetha.. hard.. she's like sucha fun person to be ard wit, yet she still makes it a point to keep an eye out fer me.. still rememba dat time she got pissed off big time when some random dude offered me a shot in boudoir.. i nonchalantly took it n wuz abt to down it when she hit e glass away fm my hands... i've neva felt so cared fer.. especially in boudoir.. she's there to listen to me whine n when she needs to bitch n moan abt a certain musang berjanggut, i make it a point to be there fer her as well... i feel her pain n i feel her joy.. n dat's special, considerin how long (or short, fer dat matter.. a yr plus maybe?) we've known each other.. n then there's those malicious stories i've heard abt her... irregardless, i still care fer her coz i noe some rumours are juz e deeds of myopic ppl who judge too soon.. some may dislike her but i fer one, luv her to bits n am not shy abt dat.. in a totally heterosexual way lah.. heh.... she's e life of e party n even tho we mite not see each other fer wks on end, i can appreciate e fact dat we can simply pick up fm where we left off.. to me, there's nothin fake abt her n i like dat..
so, to my beloved afida, may dis yr be of great blessings n may u finally be happy in luv wit u-noe-who.. u noe i kinda frown upon e fact he's takin u fer granted, but if he's e one who keeps u happy, there's nothin more i can say... *huuuugggzz*

n den there's kerry... hmm, dis one.. e history we haf runs a looong way back.. back when we were still in skool, skippin classes togetha, sneakin into e movie theatre at east point, only to get caught.. in uniform, no less!! hahahaa.. e frenship dat blossomed into sthg so beautiful, it's etched in my heart fer good, or probly til e day i get dementia... hehehe... still rememba those days, so sheepish n shy ard one anotha, n how we kept e rlsp under wraps fm even our closest frenz, simply coz we were too shy abt it... jeez, how those days r so gone... judgin by how shameless i've become.. LOL!!! n den, i still rememba dat time when late angah wuz hospitalised, n how he actually sent me all e way to sgh, after skool.. all.. e.. way!! n he stays in pasir ris, mind u.. den, he wuz on e fone when i broke down abt her passin.. how his keepin quiet wuz e best comfort he cld offer, lettin me mourn it all out.. those poems, those gifts (i lost dat bear in a heart pendant he got fer my bifday n haf been kickin meself in e arse til today.. =/), n dat watch.. e one he din eat properly fer a mth, i tink, juz to save up fer.. still usin it actually.. dun tink it's healthy of me to be doin dat but hmmm...
dat wuz like sooo long ago oredi lah.. oh, n he wuz always there when i wuz tryin my luck wit e airlines.. he always gave me e encouragement n support n i s'pose he's one of e reason or even inspiration fer me to be where i am rite now.. he's always sacrificed so much fer me, be it financially, physically or emotionally.. if i'm soundin like i still hold a torch fer him, fret not.. life has changed so bloody much n i'm beyond dat luv we had.. he's more of like a dear, dear person in my heart, who's definitely special beyond doubts.. he's always been there fer me, unconditionally, even after all e hurt i put him thru.. fer dat, i'm foreva guilty n my conscience will neva be clear.. it's like we've moved beyond dat luv btw a girl n a guy to a luv fm a person to anotha... he is truly amazin n a treasure.. lucky is e girl who'll end up wit him.. wish him all e luck n luv in e werld, coz he deserves nothin less than dat... words juz can't describe how grateful i am to haf him in my life.. i truly luv dis guy.. without a doubt..

but now, i'm at a totally new chapter.. a whole new beginnin.. n i believe i've found sthg pretty amazin n beautiful, juz tinkin of it gives me a warm, fuzzy feelin all over.. it's still in e early stages but i'm oredi lookin forward to wat's in store.. how 2 ppl can feel so similar n be so open n honest to one anotha is simply beautiful.. neva in my life haf i let my guards down so much, it's like i'm an open book wheneva we're togetha.. how perfect it all seems is really freakin me out.. nonetheless, i'm still willin to give it a try... juz like dat james morrison's song... ~sigh~

®gosh, feelin so sentimental rite now man.. i am truly blessed..