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so, i wuz sayin yday dat so much's happened since i last blogged.. well, my reserve's officially over.. i can reclaim my so-called life now!! yeay!!! i wasn't expectin much after bein pulled out fer 2 dhakas, one after anotha.. but e last flgt i got called out fer totally made up fer it all.. i got a sin-jakarta-colombo.. tho it wuz a mere 24hrs stay in sinz, e crew were all nice, almoz all, n i had a great time in colombo.. not kiddin u.. i mean, yeah, colombo, of all places? but i did haf fun.. =)
we went shoppin, had dinner by e beach which wld haf had been beautiful if not fer e monsoon rain!!! 9 of us braved e downpour to get to dat seafood place n were havin a gd time when we were suddenly under attack!!! by flyin roaches!!!!!!! hahahaa... disgustin really, but tank god i had oredi finished my meal.. heh.... den, desserts in e hotel lobby, b4 checkin out e in-house club.. so tacky lah dat one!!! called e library.. so, when e manager came over to us to inform dat 'e library is now open', i wuz like, why is he tellin us dat? do i look like i'm in e mood fer books? LOL!!!!!! it was tacky only becoz dey had balloons all over e floor, like some sorta 5-yr old's bday party.. n since it wuz ladies' nite, there were these 2dudes, bodybuilders i s'pose, in juz a collar n pants.. no shirts.. funny part wuz when dey started shimmyin on e dance floor, i mean, it wuz more of a bodybuildin-flexin-moves rather than dancin... gosh!! dey must haf thot they were god's gift to womankind!! puh-lease!!! we were like all laffin our heads off at em... kekekeke...

den, only 4 of us left fer H2O, dis apparently most happenin club in all of colombo... got VIP treatment, as soon as we came in, dey'd actually let us haf a reserved table juz coz we were fm emirates.. sweet!!! n e dj even made a special announcement to welcome us.. e place wuz not too bad, i really liked it but e crowd leaves much to be desired.. dey were all juz standin ard e dance floor, millin abt... not too happenin, dudes!!!!! but we hit e dancefloor newayz, in a bid to entertain those folks n it wuz nice since there wuz not much ppl on it n we had so much space to show off our moves... kwahkwah!!!!! den, headed back n watched 'saw 3' on bahraini ali's lappy... me, hamidah, wael n ali... nite-owls sia!!! some more e movie rather gory n there we were, went back to our rooms only ard 5am-ish?!? surprised i had sucha gd sleep considerin e movie we juz indulged in.. hahahaha... i tell u, i tink i'm so de-sensitised to all these horror shows.. dey dun haf as much effect on me as dey used to.. maybe after certain experiences, u tend to be more cool abt it all.. heh...

newayz, when i came back to dubz after dat flgt, i had sucha bad food poisonin.. swear i thot i wuz dyin!!! broke out in cold sweat while sleepin n had to keep runnin to e loo... passed motion til there wuz no motion.. puked even!!! til there wuz nothin left in my guts.. felt so lifeless n weak.. tank god harlz came downstairs to accompany me, made porridge fer me n juz chilled, watchin tv... wuz s'posed to go zinc dat nite lah, wit e crew off dat last flgt but i figured rushin to e loo evry 5mins in e club wun be much of a turn-on... so, i still haf yet to step foot in dat club!!!! n i tink i'm like e last person to do so lah!!!! sheeesh...

well, 2nites agos, us roomies had a horror movie screenin after midnite... we caught 'an american hauntin'.. it's not dat spooky lah.. sure, there were moments when we gasped in shock n all but e ghost not even scary lah... or maybe as i said, i'm not dat wussy anymore.. hahahahahaha.... in fact, tanx to dat movie, i slept too soundly to wake up in time to call sick yday.. damnit!!!!

so now, am on standby 2.. still ard 6hrs plus to go... damnnnnnn.....

but all's well, got my PINKY luggage.. n my webbycammy... n those chargers.... n my bags!!!!!!!!
~bliss~


well, a whole load has been happenin lately... in fact, i juz came back fm cbc.. in wat's to be e best cairo flgt eva, simply becoz i din go fer it!! hahahaha... first of all, wuz s'posed to call sick but woke up too late fer dat n woke up in shock n had to get ready fer pick-up... unfortunately, no tanx to e traffic, wuz even later fer signin in n they'd oredi removed me off e flgt.. wuz prepared to go home but e briefin dude told me to stay on n so i had to do a 4hrs airport standby.. which wuz fine by me so long as i dun get pulled out... which of coz wuz exactly wat happened.. but e shittiest part of it all is dat those sneaky bastards at crew schedulin put me on standby 2 tmr, startin at 10am n ends at 10pm... n i can't call sick fer dat coz if i do, i risk gettin my manila removed as well!!! n i wuz so lookin forward to manila!!! shoppin!!!!!!!! n e thing is, even if i do get called out fer a flgt durin e standby tmr, i mite still end up bein illegal to do manila, coz i'd haf less than minimum rest!!! so, i've really got myself in a rut... i've officially fucked myself up!!!! eeeaaarrrggghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! damn damn damn.... n juz when i thot murphy's left me...

oh, juz fer y'alls info... i've got my PINKY back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! after wat seems like eternity... well, if eternity's a mth, it was!! hahahaha... but yeah, got my luggage back yday... tank god!!! wuz almoz gonna give up but when e lady called in e mornin, sayin dey'd found a luggage similar to mine, i wuz so excited.. i mean, how many pink luggages get lost neways? sheeeesh...

okie, i betta go change.. haven't even take out e stockins lah... n no, it's not smelly.. din haf e chance to be.. c'mon, how tough wuz it to be sittin n waitin in e cbc.. i certainly din break a sweat, unless u consider e metaphorical ones wheneva dey called out e others on standby.. in fact, i made myself so comfy, had my white coffee... smoked tuna salad... oooh, dat wuz really yummy btw... took off my shoes n even had a bit of a shut-eye... printed out my annual leave tix.. even managed to do a bit of retail therapy at e crew shop.. hahahahah.... a rather fruitful standby i must say... =P


juz had a 'lunch date' wit ahmed.. my manager.. n, i found out i haf 6 absents!!! since when?!?!?!?!?!?!?!


let's be chronological n lemme start fm 2days ago... well, had airport standby at 6am til 9am.. but tank god i din get pulled out.. out of like 8 of us, only me n dis otha indian dude got sent home.. i'm so not complainin lah.. coz i wuz oredi sayin, gimme sinz or nothin... LOL!!! gansta bitch hey? i'm startin to like airport standby coz its a time fer u to mingle wit ppl u barely see after werkin on a flgt togetha... so there i wuz, wit my cuppa(s) coffee, initially fallin asleep, readin a book n den it seems like i knew almoz evryone goin fer flgts lah... felt so popular all of a sudden.. kwahkwah... so in my own world lah.. had to abandon e book n 'socialise' a bit.. heh... den, as sudden as it happened, it all went quiet again... sheesh... decided to indulge in some texttwist n simon chan-a purser i flew wit, came over n chat, n he thot i had been busy sms-in e whole while... hahahah.. i'm sooo addicted to dis game lah... wheneva i'm free, texttwist... first thing i wake up, texttwist... when i'm on e throne.., textwist? LOL!!!!! coz not!!! so newayz, been missin out on a lotta action.. eva since zinc reopened, i haf not stepped foot in it!! so kental sia!!!! but i've been sick n not to mention, broke... hehehehe... harlz, salz n rosh went on mon.. apparently dey saw some ppl n it wuz a happenin nite dat brought out dat brought out their bitchy sides.. so wished i had gone lah!!! missed out on some gd action there.. damnit!!! n on tues, i received a msg fm nadz, 'goin to zink wanna join?'... dat wuz sucha big-time turn-off lah dude!!! u dun even noe how to spell zinc?!? or is dat e way dey spell it now after e reno works?!? i dun tink so!!! sheesh... dat's sad...

newayz, slept e whole day after e standby n lyndz wuz s'posed to come.. dat woman, poor thing, depressed.. so wanna meet her lah but e fact dat her place's like halfway to abu dhabi oredi always makes me tink twice... i mean, headin there probly costs close to 40dhms n not to mention e way back.. gawd simon!! why'd u haf to be cruel n separate us liddat?!?! aaargh!!!!! well, she din turn up here coz she wuz drownin her sorrows.. poor poor baby... hang in there babe.. i can't be there but i'll always be here okie? n once i get some dough, i'd even travel to oman juz to meet u.. heh heh... luv u sharmuti! *muakz* sigh~

well, had lin-lin,diana n harlz over last nite... girls' nite in... funny women lah dey all... i had e whole house to myself but dey chose to eat in my room... picnic of sorts.. dey ordered nando's.. wuz so tempted but i had oredi eaten.. not to mention, i'm sorta tryin to discipline myself fm gorgin all e time.. tanx ah ppl!! den, popped some popcorn, a bowl of choc flavored n e other, light butter... a cuppa lipton milk tea each, n we were veggin out in front of e tv, watchin 'save e last dance 2'.. n as e movie proved, once u go black, u can neva go back!!!! LOL!!!!! din like e actress dat much tho.. as in she din haf e edge julia stiles had.. she wuz oso one of em coyote ugly girls.. izabella miko...found out she's polish.. LOL!!!!!!!!!!!! coz last nite, when we saw e credits, i wuz like confidently sayin, 'oh miko? japanese ah? no wonder she looked like devon aoki a bit'... LOL!!!!!!!! but, she kept remindin me of suz!!! yes, KOKO.. U!! as in her facial features lah.. n e fairness... n e skinniness... n e ehemz, hotness... (okie, u owe me dinner fer dat!) =P or maybe it's juz me lah... hehehehe...


sorry guys, e pics dun do justice at all... =/










®in boredom-kingdom rite now.. i'm sucha bore dat i bore myself.. but den, when i'm havin fun, i wldn't noe how to stop.. u noe me, when i go out, it fer days on end.. day after day of partyin..my life comes in phases n rite now my best fren's dat murphy dude who came up wit dat stupid law...... sigh~


so sick rite now.. really!! neva bluff one... sigh.... tink i'm allergic to dubz now lah.. kwahkwah... well, been so long since i last doodled over here.. wasn't in e mood lah... been rottin at home fer e past doggone days... haven't even stepped outside unless u count goin to werk as goin out lah... juz one of those phases i haf.. e can't-be-bothered-wit-anythin-or-anyone-at-all phase.. or maybe it's juz me bin sick.. =/
newayz, got called out fer dhaka e otha day, like immediately after i signed in fer e airport standby, i wauz dispatched to join e rest on e aircraft.. neva haf i worked wit sooo many guys on a single flgt lah... lucky got e otha sinz girl, sarina... tanx to dat freakin flgt, i sorta had a relapse of e flu dat i wuz recoverin fm so i wuz practically dyin in e hotel rm... but, dat's not e only thing i wanna mention.. i had a freaky experience while in e hotel rm itself lah... as soon as we reached, we all made plans to meet up fer dinner at 6pm-dhaka time.. so, i thot i wuz still pretty much full of energy, i watched discovery channel, as usual, read a book, played texttwist on my hp... n b4 i knew it, i dozed off... i wuz rudely awaken by sthg punchin me on my back, since i wuz sleepin on my side... so, i turned n as soon as i wuz on my back, it felt like a force lyin on top of me.. i cld sorta make out e 'figure'.. it wuz like ,erm, it had a film negative effect.. u noe, when u look at e developed films, it's got dat kinda effect... so, there i wuz, bein 'sat' on, fightin back.. well, tryin too.. i rememba how panicked i wuz n i oso rememba readin out those prayers/verses in vain.. coz e thing had sucha force dat it refused to budge.. i wuz scared shitless lah.. den, i snapped out of it.. juz like dat.. at exactly 5pm.. so, i wuz in tears lah... freakin out.. coz i dun even noe if it wuz a dream, a nitemare or did it really happen.. coz e room, e position of stuff in e room, wuz all exactly like wat i saw durin dat 'ordeal'..

thing is, i realised dat i wasn't exactly sleepin in total darkness as wat i normally do, i had left e tv on coz i wuz watchin some show when i drifted off... so, it's not becoz i wuz in e dark.. newayz, i had to talk to someone but i wuz scared e rest of e crew were sleepin so i called obi-wan... he said maybe coz i din wash my feet n all so dat cld be why... den, i needed more comfortin, called home but my mum wuz busy wit guests who came fer raya..(din noe ppl are still visitin.. ) in e end, i decided to scram fm e room, got ready, went to e lobby bar to wait fer e rest.. too darn early lah, considerin e earliest person to join me wuz 15mins late.. sheesh...

sat ard, which wuz so not my idea of a gd time, but evryone turned up, like all 15 of us so it wuz a bit of a change... didn't help my flu at all, bein surrounded by all those smokers.. damn, i seriously tink dey shld enforce a stricter rule fer those who still wanna smoke.. i mean, instead of killin e rest ard u as well, put all these smokers in a box, where anyone who wans some nicotine fix juz pops in.. n e smoke wld be circulatin inside of e box itself, so no pollution n those who can't afford ciggies can revel in e 2nd-hand stuff.. heh..

i'm sorry, i dun haf anythin against ppl who choose to smoke, it's juz dat it annoys me big-time when ppl juz blow e smoke in yr face, wit no regards to e state of yr health or wat.. i mean, c'mon ppl, i wuz sick!! i cdln't breathe.. my throat wuz as parched as e roads in dubz n i wuz havin a tight chest kinda feelin... how inconsiderate others can be simply amazes me.. i noe, i cld haf left e place but there wuz no way i wuz abt to go back to dat room lah!!! no way, jose! so, had an expensive medicine in e bar.. had some cognac wit hot water.. recommended by e barguy.. surprisingly, it did help.. albeit slightly lah.. but it wuz alrite, given e fact dat i cld eat so much at e buffet after e drink.. hahaha... totally gorged myself, e guys were like, whoa, girl!!! hahaha... but e zimbabwean white girl wuz gettin on my nerves big time.. she's like so damn 'over' lah... so attention seekin.. her forced laughters n shrieky voice totally aggravated my headache! n she keeps goin, n goin, n goin,n goin, n goin... u catch my drift? after dinner, it wuz shoppin fer dvds time... den went to e crew lounge.. wahlau, dat one, is exactly like e box fer smokers i wuz imaginin.. as soon as u open e door, yr senses are assaulted by e mix of fresh n stale ciggie smoke... eeeurgh!! obviously i din stay longer than a min there... dey all stayed back to watch a newly purchased ice age 2 dvd.. hahahaha... how cute! so, i braved myself n went up to my room, which freaked me out fer a bit when i opened e dorr coz it wuz total darkness ah... kinda hesitated steppin in itell u.. hehehehe... but me bein e brave me, put e card in e slot n pretended nothin happened previously... but tank god, nothin happened after as well.. popped 2 panadols.. combine dat wit diluted cognac, flu n a full tummy, i wuz knocked out cold til e next mornin, juz in time fer e wake-up call.. hahahaha!!!! shiok man... contemplated callin sick coz my nose wuz severely blocked but no way wuz i gonna spend anotha nite there!! so glad to leave dat place really...

den, on e way to e airport, we were once more stuck in traffic, n again it made me depressed since e poverty there is like so bad ah.. kids were knockin on e window of our bus, callin out 'mama'.. n there were even kids, carryin babies wit em.. i mean, how pitiful n painful a sight is dat?? i hate it lah... totally hate these kinda feelin, depressin, frustratin all at e same time.. frustrated coz those kids dun deserve to be runnin in e middle of e roads, beggin... barefeet!!! dat's so not e place fer em to be at... sigh~
den, onboard, at first i felt pity fer e pax coz dey were almost all labourers, seekin a betta life fer their families.. but, it got annoyin when u see em blatantly strippin u mentally.. n dey simply brush up against u even tho there's like so much space in btw!!! i got pissed off big time!!! n e pity all dissappeared n loathe took over... i mean, i got annoyed over e slightest thing dey did.. like bein so suaku n disgustin n uncouth n uncivilised.. n not knowin how to use e toilets.. n askin fer evrythin dey cld.. n callin out fer water even tho i wuz servin 4rows ahead of em.. i mean like there's sucha thing called patience..

eventually, i lost it n snapped at some of em, i went 'can u pls be patient? i'm not runnin away ok? wait yr turn!!'... felt bad fer a bit but boy, did it feel gd at e moment itself... den i had flashbacks of e kids on e streets n i felt super guilty.. i mean, these ppl came fm dat kinda life so it's not a surprise dey act e way dey do... honestly, it wuz like a ping-pong game btw feelin bad n bein mean... e extremes... eeargh!!! n i hate dat!!!!!

®kinda feelin frustrated abt some stuff lately.. not too sure lah.. all these pent-up feelins... eeargh!!! sigh~


well, am back... to dis darned place.. been away fer e raya festivities n so din feel like comin back here... newayz, i survived 12days witout my luggage.. came back to sinz empty-handed, wit only a big weekend bag, wit no toiletries, clothes or shoes... dun even feel like talkin abt it coz i'm beyond upset, beyond frustrated, beyond sad...

®so not in e mood to do anythin at all.. juz wanna veg out n rot e days away... doesn't help dat i'm down wit e flu as well... sigh~