This is misfidz@blogspot.com

juz a lil insight into my world....
my rantings & musings...
nothin more, nothin less
& wat goes on in here,
stays in here...
kapish?

I WILL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING FOR YOU

Oceans apart, day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice, on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
how can we say forever

(chorus)
Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here, waiting for you
Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all The times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh can't you see it baby,
You've got me going crazy

(chorus)

I wonder how we can survive, this romance
But in the end if I'm with you, I'll take the chance

Oh you can't see it baby
You've got me going crazy

(chorus)


® funny how some songs really suit your mood at a particular moment in your life.. n how e words are juz so apt to wat or how u're feelin.. in dis case, i can so imagine mr007 dedicatin dis one to me... heh.. not shy!! i mean, i'm not exaclty e one doin e waitin but seriously, e first few lines of e song totally reflects our situation.. in fact, evry sentence in it, i can relate to.. cldn't haf put it any betta! it's juz so spot-on, i swear i cld haf written it myself... n e vid? u noe i noe u noe.... *muakz*



we're e same..
i feel wat u feel
i want wat u want
n i definitely need wat u need
sometimes, i even tink wat u tink
believe me, i get weak too
tho i haf my moments,
when i find myself refusin to give in to dat dreadful dread
n i hold my ground, standin firm, not givin in to e pain
when i'm down, u pull me up
n when it's your turn, trust me to be there by your side
or, when i'm too high up amongst e cloud, u hold me down n bring me right back to earth;
where we belong
juz as i'd do, wit u;
heaven is after all a place on earth
wheneva u're around; that is
dun get me wrong, we're not clones of each other
mirror images? not even close..
we do haf our differences
here n there
still,
we're e same..
you & i
both

®thru it all, we ARE e hottest, rite?! hurhurhur...


Lyrics: John Legend - Save Room
Album: Once Again


Say That You'll Stay A Little
Don't Say Bye Bye Tonight
Say You'll Be Mine Just A Little Bit Of Love
Is Worth A Moment Of Your Time
Knocking On Your Door Just A Little
So Cold Outside Tonight
Lets Get A Fire Burning
Oh I Know Ill Keep It Burning Bright If You Stay
Won't You Stay
Stay

[Chorus:]
Save Room For My Love
Save Room For The Moment To Be With Me
Save Room For My Love
Save A Little Save A Little For Me
Won't You Save A Little
Save A Little For Me Ohhh

This Just Might Hurt A Little
Love Hurts Sometime When You Do It Right
Dont Be Afraid Of A Little Bit Of Pain
Pleasure Is On The Other Side
Let Down Your Guard Just A Little
Ill Keep You Safe In These Arms Of Mine
Hold On To Me Pretty Baby You Will See
I Can Be All You Need If You Stay
Won't You Stay
Stay

[Chorus:]
Save Room For My Love
Save Room For The Moment To Be With Me
Save Room For My Love
Save A Little Save A Little For Me
Won't You Save A Little
Save A Little For Me Ohhh

Bah Da Ba Baaa [x3]
Da Da Daaa

Ohhh Come On
Make Time To Live A Little
Dont Let This Moment Slip By Tonight
Youll Never Know What Your Missing Til You Try
Ill Keep You Satisfied If You Stay
Won't You Stay
Stay

[Chorus x2: Second Time Fades]
Save Room For My Love
Save Room For The Moment To Be With Me
Save Room For My Love
Save A Little Save A Little For Me
Won't You Save A Little
Save A Little For Me Ohhh


®wuz crammin fer my recurrent while listenin to songs.. suddenly took a liking to dis song.. din quite fancy it when i first heard it den.. but juz realised how nice e lyrics were.. tinkin of u... u noe who u are.. *winkz*.. a big wet MUAKZ for u baby..
p.s: e lyrics totally reminds me of our other song.. ehemz.. our first song.. siiiiiggghhh....
doesn't help dat anuar zain's song's currently playin... damnnnn...
i miss you........


past midnite, it'll mark e 2yrs since i left home n came over here to dubz..


big whoop-dee-dooop.....

Your Wrath Quotient: 22%

Sometimes you get really angry, but nothing out of the norm. While you may wish someone harm, it's pretty unlikely that you'd actually do anything about it.

You Are 32% Angry

You're occasionally angry, but it's really not an issue. While you may give in to your temper once and a while, you're pretty mellow. And as long as your anger doesn't effect your relationships, then it's probably in check. You know that anger is a bad habit - and you don't engage in it often.

®blogthings juz proved dat i dun actually need those courses... maybe dat someone kind enuf cld get me health supplements or some gingko biloba?? i'm always sick n i'm super forgetful nowadays.. so yeah.. anyone?? hehehehe...



eeeeaaarrrghggghhh!!!!! i seriously tink i need anger management courses.. anyone kind enuf to sponsor??


sometimes u tink u noe evrythin abt someone but u really dun... i doubted myself wheneva ppl haf doubts n i feel guilty n bad wheneva i'm doubted... i noe no one means to make me feel guilty but it's juz me.. i feel bad easily.. n it's juz not fair dat i'm allowed to feel dat way while in actual fact i really shldn't.. it's not nice to make someone feel so lousy juz becoz u feel lousy, rite? wateva happened, happened.. dat wuz e past n shall remain so.. no matter how much u tink n dwell on it, it's not gonna change a single thing.. it only serves to add excess baggage upon yrself.. so, dat's y dey coined e phrase 'move on..'.. if u can't let go of e past n continue livin in it instead, u're not exactly tryin to live in e present afterall.. den how can u qualify to tink abt e future? i mean, how can u look forward to e future if u're always lookin back in e days gone by? take it all as a lesson learnt.. sayin things doesn't necessarily make it come true.. it takes conscious effort n willpower.. to werk on yr mistakes n to stop lookin back.. it really isn't fair when u take out yr insecurities on someone else who hasn't even got anythin to do wit it all; now is it? it'll only drag evryone down.. n hence effectively startin a whole vicious cycle.. u need to take life wit a pinch of salt.. not evrythin comes wit an ultimatum... take it easy.. no point gettin worked out over evry single thing.. u'd kill yrself wit a heart-attack b4 u noe it.. pardon me fer bein sucha free-spirit, but life has a way of sortin things out.. plus, there's so many others out there who'd kill to be in yr shoes.. n i've personally seen em wit my own 2 eyes.. u juz dun realise how gd u've got it goin..


i noe i'm not an angel myself n neva once did i pretend to be one.. if i unwittingly came across as tryin to be an angel, i'm sorry.. my mistake.. i'm juz bein me, so if anyone wans to pass their judgements, be my guest!! at least i noe i'm secure wit bein myself (at least i try to be.. hahahah!!!) n i dun resort to throwin my angst to innocent parties... evryone has their own way of dealin wit things, n i choose to take things easier than most ppl.. sure, i trust ppl easily, but i believe evryone's innocent til proven otherwise.. if u dun agree wit dat, so be it.. no one's expectin u to.. juz like dat phrase 'fool me once, shame on you.. fool me twice, shame on me..' plus, i strongly believe wat goes ard come ard.. i'm not all hippy-like, void of fears or worries.. i'm only human... i do haf my fears n worries but i dun let it get e best of me.. oh, n i do have emotions too.. lately, it's been anger, frustration, hurt, etc... if i'm angry, i juz need to be left alone.. i'll cool down really quickly if i dun haf anyone breathin down my neck, pushin me, expectin things to be normal.. i mean, i can't possibly haf a normal conversation wit someone juz minutes after dey made me pissed off rite? dat'll be so hypocritical.. fer me, if i refuse to talk to u, u'd betta noe wat u did/say wrong.. n juz let me be.. i'll be fine soon after.. n i mite even buy u ice-cream (i'd lick it first tho.. muahahaha *evil grinz*)

so, i decided; maybe ppl juz dun noe me well enuf.. here's a lil list of sthgs abt me.. juz fyi (fer yr info):
(not in any particular order)
* i hate repeatin myself
* i hate ppl repeatin emselves i.e.nagging
* i hate bein told wat to do
* i hate bein told how to tink
* i hate bein pushed
* i hate guilt trips
* i hate depressin stuff
* i hate bein forced
* i hate bein doubted
* i hate convincin ppl
* i hate bein angry
* i hate havin an attitude
* i hate bein lied to
* i hate bein used
* i hate ppl usin others
* i hate usin others
* i hate bein patronized
* i hate lazy ppl
* i hate ppl who tink-dey-noe-it-all
* i hate pointin out e obvious
* i hate it when ppl ASS-U-ME
* i hate ppl who disrespect others
* i hate ppl talkin bad abt my those i adore
* i hate ppl being all judgmental
* i hate insecure ppl (be it gfs/bfs/wateva)
* i hate waitin too long
* i hate crowds
* i hate it when things dun go my way
* i hate serious stuff
* i hate it dat i'm not dat emotional..
* i hate regrets
* i hate wars
* i hate overboard cases of ignorance
* i hate violence (esp against women/children/helpless ones)
* i hate hypocrites (in all aspect of e word)
* i hate dbl standards
* i hate hating so much stuff


but there are sthgs i luv as well...
(again, not in any particular order)
* i love my cat
* i love my family
* i love my frenz
* i love my roomies
* i love my bf
* i love my so-called life (it cld haf been worse)
* i love bein positive
* i love bein bimbotic
* i love bling-blingssss
* i love e colours gold, pink, white, deeeeep red
* i love laughin n jokin ard n bein crazy
* i love bein happy
* i love enjoyin life
* i love havin no worries, bein carefree.. HAKUNA MATATA!! (afterall, u only live once)
* i love cartoons
* i love music
* i love fireworks
* i love knowin things
* i love bein told secrets (n of coz keepin em.. my lips are sealed!)
* i love being right
* i love sweet stuff
* i love chocolates of coz! gimme those hot n meltin ones anytime man!!!
* i love frangipani/plumeria/ghost flower
* i love e beach
* i love hummers
* i love watchin loving old couples
* i love cute n well-behaved babies
* i love cam-whorin
* i love shoppin (sometimes by myself)
* i love indulgin in my own thots (yes, i do tink too..)
* i love singing to myself (esp when i'm stressed.. u all shld try it too)
* i love good food
* i love bein lazy
* i love e rain
* i love snugglin under e covers in e rain especially
* i love bein contradicting
* i love havin someone play wit my hair
* i love bein showered wit affection, not too much tho..
* i love being hugged
* i love bein told i'm hot (hahahahaha!! it's healthy to haf yr ego boosted once in a while okie?)
* i love havin my own space
* i love takin my time
* i love bein independent
* i love havin someone to depend on (yeah, yeah.. contradicting..)
* i love bein me.. in fact, i adore me! wit all my flaws n wat-not, i still luv me... n nothin or no one's gonna change dat

®sometimes, i feel so lousy dat no one really noes me.. but does evryone even noe their own selves? as long as i noe me, myself, i, i'd be happy.. i dun need anyone to tell me wat dey tink of me n i dun appreciate bein dragged down along towards depression.. den again, evrything takes time, no? we'll see.. wish me luck in findin myself!! =P


WELCOME ABOARD 2007!!!



so, it's day 6 of e new yr.. hmmm.. doesn't feel much different.. all alone at home, nikki's gone fer colombo n den niza got pulled out fer some unknown flgt... haven't paid e tv bill thingy so pretty much left wit nothin to do.. sighhh... as i was sayin, e fact that it's oredi 2007 seems like no biggie at all.. i mean, reflectin back on last yr's resolution i made, i doubt i even managed to fulfil any of it at all.. so, my resolution dis yr is to not make any.. muahahahahaha!!!!!

den again, new yrs are all so over-rated... in fact, dis yr seemed like it's off wit a bad start.. i'm sick, i've got debts yet to be settled n doesn't help at all dat e old me, e one wit e attitude, is so makin a comeback.. as in, when me n him argue, e me dat i hate, emerges n certainly doesn't help make e situation betta.. but it's funny how he hates e old him which comes out durin our arguments as well.. wat can i say? we bring out e best outta each other?! rrrite.. but seriously, been arguin more than often.. n i hate it.. coz i end up feelin depressed by e end of it n i hate bein depressed.. i like to tink of it all bein a bed of roses.. i mean, i noe e world's not all fine n dandy but it's juz e way i operate.. i like to focus on e light n ignore e darkness of e tunnel i'm in.. so yeah, i hate serious talks.. so not my forte.. newayz, mummy n daddy juz called.. surprisingly e fonecards are still werkin but i kinda got annoyed at one point.. when mummy kept pointin out e fact dat my hp bill's in e thousand range.. i mean, we all oredi noe by now dat i'm kickin myself in e arse fer losin my sim card, so i dun really need to be reminded all e time... now i'm feelin bad fer showin her e attitude as well.. damnit woman!!! get a grip!!! stop throwin yr frustrations to ppl who care.. damnit!!!! okie, i said i'm not gonna make any resolution rite? well, i've juz decided.. i hafta so stop dis attitude thingy.. dat's my problem n i admit it so i hafta start werkin on it.. i do realise dat i tend to throw my tantrums to ppl who really care n it seems like i really tend to take ppl fer granted.. thing is, i do realise it's wrong but i juz dunno how to stop.. sheeeesh... i need treatment!!! *callin mummy now.. wanna apologise... geeeeez*

okie.. got dat outta e way... feel a lil betta now.. heh heh.. i'm sucha bad person... sheesh...

only highlight durin dis transition of years wuz e fact dat i managed to get e swap thru fer e sinz-colombo flgt.. so i wuz in sinz fer new yr!! whoop-dee-doooo... not much of a countdown coz we were too late to go out n catch e fireworks.. i mean, we did manage to catch em fm e room but view wuz blocked by e swisshotel so din really get a gd show.. sigh... i wish i cld haf fireworks fer my weddin... *dreamy*.. hahahaha.. dream on babe! only much later did we go out, meet up wit farz n e rest at marina bay b4 headin fer zouk.. can u believe e club wuz opened til noon dat day?! holy guacamole rite? imagine those ppl hard-core inside til noon... surely zombified sia!! hahahahaha... dat'd definitely be a sight to behold.. =) ran into joanne as we were leavin n dat lucky bitch's actually left e company fer gd since november lah... lucky lucky biatch... hmph... anotha one bites e dust...

oh, n not to forget, nadz wuz on my flgt lah.. at least he wasn't actin all weird n all.. i mean, we were bein civilised, talked a bit here n there n dat wuz it.. it's gd dat i did dis flgt coz at least i noe fer sure dat he's so outta my system lah.. no point freakin out prior to dat.. heh heh... but honestly, it felt weird on my part to actually see him in person after all dat's happened.. n it's a miracle neither of us were on each other's throats!! as in, tryin to kill one anotha.. in fact, we all had dinner at e same table(met zie at e lobby.. dat girl wuz on e other colombo flgt n boy did i hug her good!! missed her sooo terribly much man!!!) n even went to courtney's room fer some drinks n music.. usual shit.. e fact dat we cld be in e same room wit e same crowd n nothin happened, felt really good.. had a great time despite me bein sick.. left earlier wit zie coz her wake-up call wuz way in e mornin.. oh, did i mention dinner wuz fabolous?!?

me n zie totally pigged out.. we had like 5 dishes between e 2 of us n we certainly cleaned out e plates.. 2 serving of rice each n i can so rememba those angmohs girls starin fm e other end in disbelief n to a certain extent, disgust.. (especially e irish girl, blatantly gapin at us devourin our food... BITCH!) but we din care.. food wuz good, i had her, she had me.. we even had space fer dessert despite bein left behind by evryone else!! there we were, juz e 2 of us, happily satiated.. n, we still had our delifrance take-away we got while waitin fer e meal to be served.. kwahkwahkwah.... piggies!!! *oink oink*


some partin shots... some pics mite explain e disgust on e faces of those angmohs biatches.. LOL!!!!


®newayz, sthg wrong wit e net again... been tryin to upload pics but always network error shit.. i'm so losin my patience lah.. doesn't help dat e medicines i took are makin me feel a bit woozy... hmmm... honestly, i tink there's too much my pent-up frustrations in me dat when i lose it, i lose it all.. almost all.. n it's so not healthy lah.. i tink i betta stop now, e medicines' doin e talkin..