juz some of my habits of late.. so if u see me comin, run.. run far, far away... haf some sense n move out of e line of fire.. stay away fm me n u shall be safe.. if hear me whine; juz listen.. u shld noe betta than to walk into a minefield (not dat it's yr choice in e first place).. coz i tink dat's wat i am now.. a minefield..one wrong step n i'm gonna blow up in yr face.. no matter if u're innocent or otherwise.. juz like an injured beast, i'd snap at u.. even if u're tryin to help.. so, y bother, really? leave me alone to tend to my wound n i'd heal on my own.. or probly i'd juz die... but dat's not e point..
hear my war-cry..
® i so dun appreciate bein taken at face level.. as in, gimme some credit.. as hard as it may be to swallow, i do haf some depth n i do make use of e organ called brain.. n one other thing dat irks me as much is havin to ask fer some credit in e first place.. dun patronize me.. juz becoz i dun choose to wallow in e serious/depressin stuff, dat doesn't mean i dun get affected or dat i dun care... i choose to see things on e brighter side so do yrself a favour n dun try to change me..
Sunday, May 06, 2007
6th may[ 7:18 PM ]
i've known her almost all my life.. and i'm not exaggeratin.. nearly 2decades?!? dat's amazingly loooong... as i said, i dun even noe if marriages last dat long these days, much more frenships... ppl come n go... it's juz part of life.. but to haf someone u share e bulk of yr life wit, to grow up n *ehem* blossom togetha, to see e transformation fm innocent wide-eyed kids ( yes, we were!!) to hot, nubile femmes ( n yes, we ARE)... i must say i'm truly blessed...
we both haf our differences n dun even get me started on e idiosyncracies dat comes along.. but trust me, i truly haf luv fer her, in the most heterosexual way of coz.. she's like e sister i neva had.. true, juz like sisters, we bitch abt each other n at times, i do feel like stranglin her.. but we've gone beyond dat.. ( i hope.. ) =P she's pretty much influenced e way i turned out n i certainly can't imagine havin reached dis stage of my life not havin known her at all.. (hmmm... i took a second to picture it, n boy, it wuz quite a task..) i'm sure life as it is wld be more empty.. no one wld haf exposed me to e spice girls!!! e horror!!!! LOL!!!!!
n no, i wun haf all these memories of growin up, wit incidences of flashings, someone doin my make-up on my prom nite, e passionate affair wit chocolates.. my life wld pretty much be a void..
granted, sometimes, i dun share enuf of my life wit her, but it's simply becoz i'm so scared of bein judged by someone i hold on so dearly to.. laugh, sceptics, laugh all u wan... but honestly, to even come close to bein a dissapointment to anyone i treasure, is a big n real fear i haf in me... fer all of e others out there, 'i dun give 2 fucks abt wat dey tink'-*quoted by lynda*
so, on dis special day, altho i haf only less than half an hour to finish dis entry up before it turns midnite in sinz/perth...; i juz wanna wish my life-long-bosom-buddy-bestie with all e goodness in e world, e best in health, wealth, happiness, luv, e whole nine yards fer dat matter.. u've touched me ( not literally ) in more ways than u can ever imagine.. true, we're not dat affectionate but i juz wanna let u n e whole world noe dat u mean so much to me n u certainly added spice to my life.. truly can't imagine life witout u n i juz wanna thank u fm e bottom of my heart fer acceptin me fer who i am instead of runnin off fer yr life...
well, u're pretty much stuck wit me now fer e rest of yr life n i'm soooo lookin forward to our REAL blings to celebrate e 2nd decade!!!
dearest tina, happy 24th bifday n as cliche as it may sound, may all yr wishes come true!!!!!
*MUAKZ*
Friday, May 04, 2007
geeez..[ 7:27 PM ]
i've not showered... i've not eaten... i've not studied...
wat a productive day!!!
® tank god fer e i've not showered part... sudden attack of e ciggies essence.. why oh why??!
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
random rants....[ 1:59 AM ]
ohmigosh.... it's e second nite/mornin in a row dat i've stayed up late.. okie, no big deal rite? well, it IS a big deal when u're crammin fer a course!! best part is, i seem to be doin e assignments wrongly... i tink there's dis particular one dat i did which mite end up uneccessary!! n to tink i spent like hours on it, strainin my eyes tryin to make sense of e fuckin fine print.. dat's wat u get when u squeeze an A6 size paper to fit into A4!! i mean, dey practically shrunk e freakin paperwork into one page n now it all seems to make sense why my eyes are so blurry...
n dat's not all... e freakin person who published e coursebook obviously din proof-read e whole thing.. it's like there's a freakin typo in evry sentence n i totally gave up correctin em after 5pages!!! yeah, 5pages n still more to go but it seemed like i wuz fightin a losin battle.. pissed me off big time!! e kinda quality found in e so-called premium cabin coursebook is totally appallin.. not dat i'm some language whiz.. i'm not even e native speaker.. n i'm not abt to be one of those who tink their command of e language is so superior, dey haf evry rights to be snooty n proceed to fake an accent... wit all due respect to those ppl, i dun see e need to be so poser n all.. i mean, yeah, sometimes grammatical errors irks me... juz like when someone who's obviously tryin too hard does... plus, i noe i'm not exactly a fine example of someone practisin perfect english, as u can tell fm my blog, but it's juz a freakin blog... it's s'posed to be light-hearted.. s'posed to be where u pen (type) down yr thots.. s'posed to be where u can be yrself n forget abt e facade..
but dat's not e point.. how can an established international company take e trainin materials of their staff wit so little regards??! i'd definitely be embarrassed when someone reads thru e book n see e incredulous standard of english... it doesn't help dat some of e errors are so easily noted n perhaps rectified n yet it wuz a repeated mistake.. e person typin out e whole guide certainly seems to be in a hurry.. either dat or e pc dey used did not come wit a spellin check function.. (which brings me back to rant abt e fact dat dis is an established international company we're talkin abt!!!)
okie, okie... gotta give baby a wake-up call.. can't believe i bitched so much... told myself it'll juz be a short entry... but........
sorry guys, i tink it's juz a side-effect of bein sleep-deprived n stressed up over e upcomin course.. not to mention, home-sickness.... n an overdose of cigarette smoke... fuckin house smells like a fuckin motel!!!!!!
®fuckin hate it when ppl take others fer granted.. respect is totally not sthg common these days...
