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juz a lil insight into my world....
my rantings & musings...
nothin more, nothin less
& wat goes on in here,
stays in here...
kapish?

Flaws And All

I'm a train wreck in the morning
I'm a bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you
I'm a puzzle yes in deed
Ever complex in every way
And all the pieces aren't even in the box
And yet, you see the picture clear as day.

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that's why I love you

I neglect you when I'm working
When I need attention I tend to nag
I'm a host of imperfection
And you see past all that
I'm a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I'm a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
and that's exactly what I need.

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
and that's why I love you


®so true!!!
e 'i neglect you when i'm werkin..' part... dat one.. i neglect you when i'm sleepin too!!! ahahaha....!!
goes out to u baby....

Labels: lyrics, vidz

needa invest in more hand of fatimas.. bein ard e kind of ppl here.. found a pretty belly button chain online... but i thot dis pic is nice too.. very mambo....
newayz, i've got a freakin bangalore later tonite.. so feel like callin sick coz it's anotha one of those draggy turns.. n i'd be comin home when e sun's juz come up.. very bad timing coz by then, u're s'posed to sleep when other normal ppl are gettin up..
doesn't help dat e next mth's roster's rather sucky as well.. whole reason being i've got no sinz city n to kick off e new mth, i haf a dhaka turn followed by a male turn!!! wtf?!!?! those flgts are layovers on some days n here i am, havin to slog e whole freakin day, to n back.. it's as gd as doin a direct sydney or jfk!!!!! geez.... i'm only human...
so now i'm torn... call sick now? later?? but i've been sucha gd girl.. four mths since i last called sick.. dat's a personal record.. well, no, not really.. e record wuz 8mths.. when i wuz still wide-eyed n thot e world of e company.. hah!


n it's really amazin to see hundred over hrs on my roster coz back in economy, i'd be havin 90.. max... not to mention, pretty gd flgts, mostly those i'd requested fer.. ah well, juz movin along to anotha phase in life i s'pose...
so.. i haf to get up at 6 in e evenin n it's almost 8am.. shld i go back to sleep?? altho dat's wat i've been doin e whole nite.. or shld i stay awake fer a few hrs?? hmmph... oh! e conundrum!!!!!!

®still haven't settle e visa shit yet.. hate dat!!! i mean, when i wanna do sthg, i dun wan any bumps along e way.. otherwise, i wldn't haf bothered... n after decidin firmly my course of plan, dis mother-of-a-hump has to be in my way!! bloody hell!!!

Labels: roster

noe wat?
two can play e same game...
but i hope to do it wit my dignity n integrity intact..
not to stoop to yr low..
u act?
i will too..
dun tink all e smiles exchanged means i'm ignorant..
dun tink u can get away wit it all..
dun tink dat things dun come round..
juz becoz someone keeps quiet, dat doesn't mean dey're happy wit u..
or condones all yr acts..
u're sly..
n schemin..
n stupid..
fer tinkin others are..
juz becoz yr luv is...
as i said, i'm not like u n i wldn't wanna be..
i'm not sayin i'm all betta than u..
hey, i'm writin dis down now..
isn't dat juz as bad??
but how much can one take?
b4 dey reach e limit?
u noe i'm not e confrontational kind..
u noe i'm a wuss..
n of coz, u seized e opportunity to use it to yr benefit..
take advantage of yr own frenz..
it's e one thing u're gd at newayz..
u haf many doncha?
leave mine alone..
trust me, i dun hate you..
altho i do despise u at times..
it's more of i-wish-i-din-even-noe-you..
n i-wish-i-din-trust-you-so-much..
but i'd foreva rememba e gdness n kindness lavished upon me..
or wuz dat all part of e pre-conceived act??
well, lesson learnt fer me i s'pose..
i'm convinced now u're not who u wan others to tink u are..
u're a lost soul..
n i wish u all e best in finding yrself..
n i wish yr frens all e best as well in findin out e real u..
in e meantime, let's play pretend fer as long as u want..
coz wit evry passin day, i seem to be gettin e hang of it..
gd luck!!




®it's really too bad things haf to take a turn fer e worse.. but i hafta wisen up against e likes of u.. juz can't let ppl like u to keep takin me fer a ride.. n fer yr frenz who tink u're e victim; dey cldn't be more wrong.. why didn't anyone jump at e idea of sharing yr daily lives?! isit becoz u guys oredi haf an inkling of wat she's really like? if so, stop judgin against those who haf to put up wit it.. keep up e hypocrisy in yr so-called frenship.. but spare me.. stay out of my hair.. as far as i noe, dis doesn't concern u, so u dun deserve to critisize.. sure, u're entitled to yr opinions, but so am i.. i've seen more than enuf of dis kind of frenships ard here n i personally dun need one in my life.. i've got my own frenz in e real world.. frenz are not someone who hide behind facades n frenz dun take sides blindly.. granted, u mite haf unconditional luv n blind loyalty to one anotha but where are yr morals, really?? den again, birds of a feather flocks togetha, don't dey?

Labels: ppl, random rants, to you

so... i've oredi typed out a whole post last nite/real early dis mornin.. all done, rite down to e font colours when evrythin juz disappeared!!! &%@%&!!!!!! so much fer e auto-save function.. coz it's nowhere to be found.. sheesh.. juz tinkin abt it makes my blood boil all over again.. *pfft*

i wuz simply talkin abt how yday wuz sucha fruitful day n how i realised dat over here in dubz, there's still ppl worth missing n caring fer.. n dat certainly gives me warmth all over...

so, met up wit suzanna.. our much overdue date which neva seemed to materialise finally did.. went to mall of emirates n headed straight to johnny rockets to feed our hungry selves.. menu wuz kinda limited but i really like e way it wuz done up.. pretty much like billy bomber's but more authentic in a way.. totally reminded me of pop tate's fm archie comics.. heee.. yep, i still do read em.. tanx to my bro who keeps supplyin me.. =) food wasn't all dat wonderful but hey, when u're starvin i'm sure even paper'll taste gd... hahahah!!!

den we embarked on a shoppin spreeeee... not really on my side, it wuz lil ms suz.. she's got leave after dis flgt so she wuz preparin herself wit some new clothes dat ppl haf not seen her in.. hahaha.. i noe wat u mean babes..
i simply bought myself a tee.. n i LOVE it.. hehehe...
den, out of e blue, mr chainani appeared n scared e hell outta me when he stood rite next to me in bershka.. i mean, wat in e werld wuz he even doin there?! turns out he wuz shoppin wit some m'sian girl-frenz of his.. oh, n i shld so haf taken a pic of how suz reacted when he kissed her on her ears... she wuz totally squirmin in disgust n it wuz sucha kodak moment.. LOL!!! n erm, no, he din kiss me but i'm not complainin.. =)

so, after much walkin abt e mall, my feet got really achy.. i tink i'm so out of shape considerin i've been practisin abstainance fm all these malls... waited fer muliadi to fetch us n he wuz late.. came all e way fm abu dhabi n wuz stuck in traffic or sthg.. he only arrived half past e hr, e time when i wuz s'posed to meet dali ( danny's sis )..!! n callin him wuz futile coz DU sucks!!! it's e new telecoms provider n i tink dey seriously needa werk on their network..

finally, after much internal hyperventilating over e fact dat i've not met dali before n bein late fer yr first 'date' so doesn't make a great impression.. reached ravi palace restaurant n dat poor darlin wuz sittin there, readin a book.. i tink i'd be pretty pissed off n i felt so guilty e entire time.. =S
had sucha a gd time, talkin abt evrythin n nothin n e 'best' part is, she's leavin dubz in 2wks' time.. fer gd!! n to tink she's been here since last june, n it's only our first acquaintance.. sigh~ cruelty of life is as such...
while we were there, saw mary wit her hubby, havin dinner.. been soooo long since i last saw her n it felt so nice to still be remembered.. hehehe... yep, din noe ravi's wuz so popular.. din even noe it existed n i stay like juz one road away.. told u guys i dun go out much..

dali had to leave coz we wldn't wan her hubby to pass out on e floor out of hunger now wld we... made our separate ways home n i called harli juz to say hi n she wuz abt to leave fm tasha's.. so, she stopped by at mine fer a while n we juz chilled n talked abt stuff.. n now she's in gatwick.. babes, things haf a screwed up way of werkin out so, chin up yah?? *muakz*

dat's pretty much a jist of wat happened yday.. loadsa girly company n loadsa run-ins wit ppl.. gd day all in all.. shld do dis more often.. =)

in e meantime, njoy dis vid...go ahead, sing along.. u noe u wan to... =P



® hey my chakrau fren.. u noe who u are.. let's do dis again sometime soon k? i mean, of coz after yr leave in sinz.. n yr sinz-brissy... *pfft*.. no fair!! n baby, despite me havin a ball of a time here, dat doesn't mean i dun miss u k? in fact, i tink all i seem to talk abt is you, you, you... damnnnn.... *pfft pfft*

Labels: dubz, vidz

many a times, while on e travellator, i picture myself doin juz dat... how i wish... e red hat n wat nots totally make it look less fun... sigh~

®gettin ready fer a date wit suzanna now.. e long-awaited date.. ahahahaha!!!! so gonna take loadsa pics!! yeay....!!

Labels: vidz

did a few minor changes to n in my room.. can't wait to paint it tho.. i noe, i've been sayin dat fer e past 2yrs plus.. but i really intend to.. it's juz dat when i tink of all e trouble i'll hafta go thru when i finally move out, it makes me think twice.. n dat's not all dat i've been procrastinatin abt.. i haf 2mirrors still waitin to be hung.. a cupboard of sorts to be put up.. holes to drill fer e shoe holder.. geez.. i've got soooo many things on my to-do list, yet i wasted anotha fine day watchin inuyasha online.. hahahah!! talk abt prioritisin...

well, came back fm heathrow last nite.. n instead of sleepin ( told e whole crew i'd be in bed by 9pm.. not dat dey'd care.. hee.. ), i ended up clearin up e drawers n tossin out unwanted rubbish.. restocked e toilet drawer neatly.. re-arranged e stuff on e book shelf... n ended up sleepin past midnite.. to tink i wuz really beat but i juz cldn't sleep!! n dis has been buggin me fer quite some time now.. my body clock's officially a mess!!! so yeah, thot i'd tire myself to sleep n i regret it now coz when i woke up, i had muscle aches all over.. did e galley again on e flgt n doin e chores at home certainly din help em relax one bit.. hey, housework IS tough k? werk is.. period..

newayz, made a fool of myself while in heathrow.. thot e weather wld be cold n i packed only a pair of boots.. considered wearin my werk shoes out but decided on juz suckin it in n wearin e boots instead.. it wuz s'posed to rain anyways.. n it did.. only when i wuz walkin back to e hotel... *rolls eyes*
so yeah, decided to be adventurous n headed out e other direction, to uxbridge, instead of e normal visit to hounslow.. bad move... bad, bad move.. coz ultimately, my goal wuz to pay homage to primark.. but there wuz none in uxbridge!!! n e sales assistant i asked said e nearest wuz in hounslow!!!! dat'll be nice if it wuz as near as he'd put it.. but 'near' is like an hr's bus ride away!! e hotel wuz smack in e middle n i chose to go to somewhere i shldn't even haf bothered considerin!! i mean, it makes no sense to get fm point A to C only to go to B thru A n den havin to go back to A again?? hahahaha!!!! makes no sense no?
ended up wanderin aimlessly, wit no primark fix... constantly smackin my head ( not literally ) fer my own stupidity... why oh why am i always so silly??!


n it din stop there.. thruout e whole flgt back, i wuz bein sucha butterfingers, n so not at e top of e game!! i must haf really tested e patience of e other 2 girls.. who were lovely btw, always lendin me a hand.. tho i wldn't noe if dey were bitchin abt me coz dey were both koreans afterall.. so yep, e whole flgt wuz a disaster n when i thot it wuz all over, i literally splashed e whole toilet wit red wine juz as i wuz tryin to gash it down e bowl.. somehow, e whole wine cage juz escaped fm my hands n made a frantic downpour in e loo.. cue e korean girls to e rescue once more... gosh... i seriously can't rememba how many times i screwed up in dat 7hrs or so.. i'm sucha klutz dat i even surprise myself.. n i hate dat...

® yep.. i'm still me.. e same ol klutzy, ditzy person... some things dun change huh?
baby.. i miss u terribly.. we mite say we're normal but sometimes i tink we're far fm dat.. n it's those simple things dat makes me happy.. like today's loooong conversation online fer example.. it's been a while hey?
screw e net provider in dubz!! dey screwed wit our precious sightspeed!!! curses!!!

Labels: random rants

'the terminal' was showin on tv juz now.. wuz so nice watchin it again.. sucha feel-gd show.. n tom hanks' talent is exceptional... i luv dat guy... but e best part of e show? wuz when e phoenix chi guy's character wuz talkin abt catherine zeta-jones' character (who is a stewardess) n he went sthg like 'flyin totally screw their biological clock n dat's why dey're always ready fer sex.. why do u tink dey're always smilin??'---or sthg along dat line.. hahahahaha!!! classic...

n oh, not to forget e old indian guy, gupta... wat a character!


almost went to snoozeland when i realised i din write abt today.. well, nothin much happened.. in fact, it wuz e laziest, slothiest day on record.. fer myself, at least... din do anythin at all.. unless u consider finishin season 3 of desperate housewives as sthg.. practically vegged out in front of e tube e whole day n ordered pizza.. meal fer two; fer juz one i.e. me!!! hahahaha... it made more sense coz i thot it'd be my two meals fer e day but i had no appetite to even begin with so i only managed to down 2 n a half slices.. damnnn... i'm restless n i din eat enuf.. wat's wrong wit me?!? but yeah, e pizza inspiration came fm telly, seemed like evry show i watched had ppl eatin pizza in it... there u haf it.. e power of tv!!

but dat wasn't e only recurrin theme today.. e other being infidelity... of coz there wuz loads of it on wisteria lane.. it is part of e plot anyways.. but den when i wuz watchin Dr.Phil ( hey, it wuz in e aftnn n there wuz nothin interestin on!!.. ) n it basically revolved ard couples wit unfaithful partners... there wuz this particular dude, who's married n insists there's nothin wrong wit him gettin some fm other women n expects his wife to understand.. in his own words, 'it's juz my nature.. i'm e hunter..' n e level of maturity reflected by him wuz totally incredible.. n i'm totally bein sarcastic here.. he's juz so bloody shallow n childish he even walked out of e show when he wuz cornered at one point.. coz he wuz tryin to weasel his way out of trouble by lyin n obviously it din work coz e interviews dey did wit him prior to e show wuz all on record!!! one hell of a stupid SOB!!! n if his wife chooses to stick by her sad-excuse-of-a-man; she's stupider... ( is there such a word?? ) kinda reminds me of a certain 'fren' who stayed here wit us fer almost 3mths.. juz received a fonecall fm her/him e other day.. simply becoz they were havin problems again n dat gf of hers switched off her mobile.. so wat's new?? sheeesh... wake up n smell e roses!!! or in dis case, my fart... hahahahahahah!!!!!



so as i wuz sayin, e whole theme fer today wuz infidelity.. n even on channel v, when i wuz channel-surfin, e first song dat came on wuz 'don't lie' by black eyed peas... hmmm?? wat's up wit dat?!

first of all, i wun even take cheatin on me lying down.. dat's fer sure.. i'm selfish liddat.. i dun share my man.. n i'd probly be on a rampage, juz like dat biggsby character on despo housewives--she learnt of her hubby's affair n went on a shootin spree in e supermarket... not really a shootin spree per se... go watch n u'll noe wat i'm talkin abt.. but of coz, i'm not as crazy.. i mean, i'd juz let nature take its course.. after all, karma is one big bitch no one wise enuf wld wanna mess wit.. in JT's words in dat song of his; 'wat goes ard comes back ard...' oh, n of coz alicia keys did a gd job sendin out dat msg as well.. i hate violence n i hate confrontations even more... ( wuz starin at my 3 cats-see no evil, say no evil, hear no evil- figurines n tryin to figure out which one i wuz.. n i tink i'm say no evil...) i hate unpleasantness tho i do bitch abt it occassionally.. juz dat i wun do much abt it.. i pretty much wait fer e evil-doers to get their just desserts...

but lately, i've been tryin to stop all this negativity n tryin to get myself to rise above it all.. i mean, wat's e point in cursin others when all it does is make u feel worse?? n wat's e point of stoopin to their level? i tink it'll be betta if u juz wish em all e best n move on... if dey tink dat doin wrong is right, den let em learn their own lessons... of coz, dis only applies to ppl who crosses e limits wit me..
if ppl dat i care abt does any wrong, i'd give em a hard knuckle on e head to knock some sense into em... so, if u eva get sucha treatment, juz rememba, i'm only doin it becoz i luv u... =P

so as i wuz sayin, i can be pretty selfish.. only when i noe dat dat sthg is mine... n rightfully so.. i'm not e kinda person to come in between a couple n somehow, in all my simple-mindedness, i'd expect others to honour dat as well.. but of coz in reality, dat's a lil too much to be askin fer... dat SOB i mentioned earlier, e cheat on Dr.Phil, even went as far as to sayin to e audience who disagreed wit his point of view dat it's right fer men to get some action outside their marriage, dat 75% of em wld haf been cheated on... now, dat's a worryin statistic.. wateva happened to happily eva after?! wateva happened to e sanctity of a marriage?! i wanna be those old couples, still in luv wit each other, still holdin hands in their twilight years.. or is e generation we're in juz unlucky enuf to be degenerates?? heck, the other couple featured, had e husband cheatin on e wife while she wuz goin thru plastic surgery in order to please him... she wuz lyin there, bein cut open, all while he wuz bein pleasured by someone else.. we deceive ourselves wit lies, deception n more commonly, plastic surgery...
wat haf we become?? (n by we, i dun mean me..=P)
n to haf 'reality' tv shows which sensationalise n even glorifies vices ( i'm talkin abt jerry springer shows n e likes..) n havin ppl wash their dirty laundry out on national tv, broadcasted all ard e globe, wat kinda msg are we sendin out?? i sure as hell wld be damn embarrassed to talk abt my problems in front of a crowd... i'd rather settle it wit e parties involved.. but who are we kiddin? we noe i'm not dat kinda person.. i'd juz mull abt it n juz go wit e flow... which i noe, is a problem in itself..

but, as i said, i'd rather give my blessings to an adulterous couple coz i noe dey'd deserve each other than to fight fer sthg which isn't worth it.. i'd juz be poisonin myself when i curse em or do voodoo on em.. i mean, u get back threefolds of wat u wish upon others.. so why not wish e culprits get a windfall of a million bucks... u do e maths.. it's threefolds... heh..... but of coz, it doesn't werk dat way... wishful tinkin!! after all, life's a bitch.. n she's got puppies... *winks at tina*


®dat wink to tina in no way indicates us condoning, adultery, voodoo,etc... n it doesn't imply me callin her a bitch.. it's juz our personal joke abt e puppies part...
tho i do wonder if one wld rather be in e noe abt e affairs or be in denial???? coz btw e 2, i can't choose.. i juz pray it'd neva happen to me..
n does peein in yr enemies' shampoo/shower gels brings u down to their level?? or maybe an innocent nudge at e top of e stairways perhaps?? or how abt bloggin abt it???
p.s:my views are highly recommended wit a pinch of salt..

Labels: random rants

ooooh... mighty tired rite now... juz came back fm zurich.. din do much there.. but super busy durin e flgt, did e galley.. pretty impressed wit myself considerin it's 340-500 n it's e first time i did e galley in e front.. simply becoz i wuz kinda lazy to entertain e pax.. so yep, considerin i'm not familiar wit e whole aircraft n not to mention e service, i did really really well if i may say so myself.. i mean, no screw-ups n evrythin went pretty smoothly.. yeay!!! *pats self on e back*

only thing is dat my nails are so blardy ugly rite now... all chipped n peelin.. n knowin how i've got itchy fingers, i'd be peelin em off by e layers.. so, ugly nails get uglier... sheeesh...

but ugly nails dun stop old men from hittin on u.. e capn wuz extremely nice n frenly, kept askin me to go up front to say hi.. even came down to our galley to 'stretch his legs'.. i mean, those ppl rarely even surface fm beyond dat sacred door much more to go down to our side.. well, thot nothin of it, so i juz entertained him as i wld any other person n even visited e cockpit.. all wuz alrite, e guys were frenly, talked abt passports, bikes, shoppin; very random topics... n den after we all signed out n were at briefin, he wuz there waitin fer his ride so i juz said my gdbyes.. u noe, juz bein courteous, n den he wuz like 'hey, maybe u shld gimme a call one day n we cld hit e malls...?' i wuz stunned n din noe how to react.. i mean, dis guy's born in e yr '59!!! probly younger by my own dad by a yr or two... eeeks!!!! he shld be havin kids abt my age, not hittin on em!!!! so yeah, i wuz pretty shocked, taken aback, aghast, loss fer words, e whole sheebang..

den again, he mite juz be frenly n i'm thinkin too highly of myself.. hahaha!! but i did feel complimented when he said i cld pass off as a polynesian.. in fact, he thot i had similar features to samoans.. coz his mum is one... i dun care if yr mum or yr granny is one, as long as i dun get mistaken fer a filipino or thai or wat-haf-yous... *grinz* no offense to anyone!!

klah, time fer bed now... not b4 i call my baby to make him jealous... hurhurhur.... =P

® will upload pics soon.. weather wuz gorgeous so managed to get some nice shots..
oh, salz.. fancy runnin into u juz now.. lookin hot babes!! been sooo long n i'm so lookin forward to our lagos.. i really mean it! tho e destination is sucky, n i do wish it wuz a sinz-brissy too, but hey, at least we've got nice peeps wit us!!! so yep, i'm lookin forward to dat... =) n oh, u juz made me miss partyin... badly.. sigh.......



apparently, later in e mornin ard 8am... there'll be a storm rite here in e U.A.E... called gonu... now, i dunno if i shld be freakin out or juz sleep thru it... hmmm??
after all, i haf 4 full-length glass windows rite here in my room... but heck, i'm only on e 4th floor, so i shld be fine, not too much to worry abt.. but judgin fm past experiences, e windows haf rattled in their place when there were super strong winds, especially in summer.. n it is summer now.. i can still rememba e day when i woke up feelin scared coz my door wuz rattlin as if someone wuz tryin to open it.. got so worried n freaked out dat i asked jihan to come to my room n check it out.. hahahah!!! scaredy cat ah?? but it wuz a freaky experience, i tell u.. cld even see e windows of e offices next door being battered by e high speed winds.. n not to mention dat huge-ass flag dis ctry has along e beach wuz virtually horizontal.. as in it wuz flappin wit all its glory tanx to e mighty wind.. n by huge-ass, i'm talkin massive...

well, we shall see if it's as bad as i imagine it'd be.. den perhaps i shall take a video of it or sthg.. otherwise, i'd probly still be sound asleep.. my inuyasha marathon ensues rite after i finish dis entry so i dun even noe wat time i'll end.... heee... bloody anime's so addictive!!!! n i've got like 137 more episodes to go.. only...


®suz's on a flgt tmr.. i hope it's not anytime in e mornin... n sal's got a nairobi.. gosh!! i do hope evryone'll be safe...
juz wonderin tho.. how'll dat burj dubai building hold up.. it's so freakin high n it's still not completed... coz apparently, ppl stayin in 21st do feel e bldg shakin esp those livin in e higher floors.. 21st is tall but not as tall as e burj.. so... i'm really wonderin...





simply can't stand em...



am i simple??


more inuyasha today.. n some chix rice wit charsiew.. e rice wuz my product but e charsiew wuz courtesy of me daddy, when i stopped by in sinz e other day.. got up kinda late, no tanx to e rain.. n went straight home... great timin, coz me daddy wasn't werkin dat day... so, we had our meals togetha, n den he actually created e charsiew (which is actually chicken meat lah) rite there n den fer me... how much sweeter can one get?? i mean, it wuz such a perfect trip dat i had on dis flgt... crew were nice.. werked in biznez witout a glitch.. ran into darlin suzanna while waitin fer cab at raffles city... it wuz so funny tho, when we ran into each other... it went sthg like dis......

me to self: oh, a missed call... shld i call back?? hmmmm?? (starts diallin..)
suz: fido... where are u... sthg.. sthg.. sthg.. ( didn't really hear her properly coz wuz too busy tryin to figure out who it wuz n whether i shld start speakin...)
*after more words fm suz' side n me finally figurin out who it wuz..*
me: suzanna!! hey, where are YOU??
suz: i'm in sinz.. u in sinz too? my flgt got delayed lah.. i'm on sinz-mel... juz reached..
me: oh ok, where are u now den?
suz:walkin over to esplanade to meet my frens.......
*n dat's when i noticed dis familiar hot chick strollin down my direction, talkin on e fone...*
me: SUZANNAAAA!!!! AAAAARRGGHH!!!
suz: FIDAHHHHH!!!!!!
*cumulated by hangin up of fones n rushin over to hugs n super fast ramblings....*

n i'm sooo not exaggeratin abt e shoutings n excited chatterings...
all these while muffins was standin as a witness.... teehee....

gosh suzanna... i do miss u sooo.... =(


newayz, talkin abt raffles city... i'm really appalled abt e fact dat there's tranny prostitutes werkin e streets near chijmes... i'm serious!!! i shld haf taken some pics but i'd probly be beaten to a pulp b4 i even get to upload em here.... go check it out fer yrselves.. especially at e juntion of raffles city/raffles hotel/chijmes.. gawd.. it wuz so disgustin hokey?!? wat e hell happened there?? it's such a sleazy n cheap thing n dey were obviously preyin on e angmohs n probly our crew who frequent chijmes... i saw one at work wit one angmoh n dat dude wuz certainly frightened off but dat tranny actually grabbed dat poor dude's hand n followed him.. literally bein dragged by e poor bewildered dude... n dat's not all, apparently, dan, one of e guys on my flgt, got e same rude shock when someone simply grabbed his hands n started a biznez preposition.. eeeeksss!!!!!!

dun get me wrong, i dun hate nor condemn tranny pros... but e fact dat they're doin biznez along dat stretch of e rd, is juz so wrong... i mean, not only will e victims get scared, it's a very public place as opposed to changi village... n those victims cld be some tourists who'll get a bad impression abt our country n go spreadin e news to their frens back home.. n den wat? some mite not wanna come visit while those perverts mite actually come, wit all e wrong intentions... by all means, conduct yr trade in places synonymous wit dat kinda activities, namely desker rd, changi... but to do it in e heart of town?!?! a bit too brazen isn't it?? n personally, i tink 8pm is far too early to even begin e prowl...


right.. where wuz i? hmm.. oh, home affairs.. well, now, there's a mini cold war goin on... i'm still pretty much in e middle coz i haven't been home much after all so i've been missin out on all e action.. but truth be told, i wasn't very happy abt some things long before as well.. it's juz dat i tend to juz suck it all in n let it pass.. when i like a person, i let em take me fer granted, only to a certain limit of coz.. n it's not like i'm oblivious to dat.. plus i'm not e confrontational kinda person.. i tend to juz bitch abt it to those close to me n den end up not doin anythin else.. so therein lies my fault.. i've been too quiet to e extend some ppl juz take it fer granted n get far too comfortable..

e slammin of e doors annoys me..
e loud music blastin fm one rm annoys me.. especially if i haf a flgt in e mornin n despite repeated attempts in gettin u to turn it down; i juz get ignored..
e mess left behind annoys me.. i mean, when u cook, haf e decency to wipe e werk area, wash e dishes instead of piling it all up in e sinkie.. it's not fair fer someone else to wash up after u coz it wun be nice if i were to wash my plates n leave yrs to rot.. n of coz, throw away any leftovers!! it's a wonder there's roaches in e kitchen! i had no prob fer a year simply coz i dun cook!!
no cookin=no mess=no roaches!!!
yeah, i'm all fer get-togethers.. i can't restrict yr social life, it is yr house too after all.. but there's only a certain limit dat ppl can take... i've haf enuf of ciggie smells n unexpected visits.. it's not as if we din put up wit yr partner over-stayin wit us fer almost 3/4mths??? but when yr guests take things fer granted as well, n come n go as n when dey feel like it, leave their mess n stench in e common area, even use MY bathroom, sthg needs to be said doesn't it?
i'm not happy wit havin ppl i barely noe, openin e door to my room to gain access to my toilet... dey're yr guests, y can't dey use YOURS?!? n it's not like dey haf my permission to do so in e first place!!! i wasn't even ard!! which reminds me of dat time when u simply decided to creep into my wardrobe, wear my top n kindly hang it back up witout my knowledge; dat is until i saw dat incriminatin video...

n usin someone else's laptop fer cyber-sex?!? now, dat's way out of line!!! sure, it's not my lappy; n it betta not be but i feel so disgusted n sorry fer e owner herself.. is dat even fair?? n den when someone voices out their unsatisfaction abt e way things haf been goin down, dey get accussed of over-reactin?!? it's not like u din tell yr fren to leave e mess u made out of tv boxes in e kitchen juz as it is.. accordin to dat fren, u said 'juz leave it, let em clear it..' wat are we?? yr freakin maids?? when no one says anythin abt cleanin up after u, dat doesn't mean dey enjoy doin so... n e accusations flung at dat person is not enuf? u actually delete dat someone off yr frenster list?!? n den haf yr partner block her off as well.. isn't dat mature.. n btw, bitchin abt her to her own best fren is so low... dis person in question has actually helped u guys a lot in case u haven't noticed.. so i dun tink it's fair fer her.. c'mon, u're older than us so start actin dat way..

did i mention e mess u created when u had yr partner stayin wit us.. let's juz say we all noe how really honest n un-promiscuous u are.. man, if dat's wat u call luv, den u'd betta thank god dat yr partner is a dumb-ass..

probly u juz can't help makin use of ppl.. but when those ppl concerned are my frens to begin with, dat's juz uncalled fer.. u haf no idea wat kinda trouble u put me thru by askin a certain fren of mine to help yr partner get a job... it's not as if u're clueless abt e kinda situation we're in.. n by tellin someone else dat u're a gd fren of anotha one of MY frens when u dun even noe her...? dat's juz plain weird... sometimes i really wonder who are u.. or wat u are... u can be all nice n sweet to me but den at e end of e day, i juz feel used.. how come?? i mean, it's not as if i dunno how fake u can be but y put on dat act?? i hate dat.. it only serves to confuse ppl okie? neva gonna earn brownie points wit me dat way alrite.. coz when u act, i somehow emulate dat n get all fake wit u as well.. n i hate bein fake.. i'd rather haf no contact wit someone i dun fancy than to be fake...

n apparently, yr partner said u've been lyin abt yr family... now, who does dat??!


well, apparently, yahoo photos are shuttin down.. wtf?!?! i mean, yeah, i do upload pics onto multiply too.. juz not as regularly.. coz afterall, not evryone is on multiply.. it makes it all so leceh (troublesome)... sheesh!!
so, tried e offer to transfer pics fm yahoo over to multiply but i dun tink it worked coz there's no sign of my yahoo pics on multiply!!! k... dis is juz me freakin out coz most of my pics online are on yahoo!!!! dey can't juz shut it down!!! why?!? why?!? why?!?!?

gosh, juz tinkin of havin to upload evrythin fm scratch onto multiply is so not sthg i'm lookin forward to.. it's not like i haf a shortage of back-blogs to finish... i din even realise i haven't said much fer a whole mth... it's like i juz disappeared fm e face of e earth hey?? hahaha... u wish!!

®it's so weird comin back.. now dat there's this underlyin tension btw us roomies.. like dis mornin, nic wuz in her room when i came back.. n none of us exchanged any words.. kinda feels weird.. i noe, we're not besties n all but still, sayin hi n juz chattin, wuz quite common.. especially when none of us has seen e other fer quite a while.. granted, the barrier has always been there, but it's so in-yr-face now... it's like we're all strangers all of a sudden... shall write down abt it next, after i feed my famished self.....


right here..
right now..
is so not where i wanna be..