juz a lil insight into my world....
my rantings & musings...
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Friday, July 06, 2007
twisted..[ 6:27 AM ]
honestly... i can so kill someone rite now... or at least trash things ard.. okie, not in my room coz it's oredi trashed as it is.. maybe a hotel room..? hmmm??? u juz can't wait, can you??? it's always now or neva.. yr way or e highway.. n when it's red, it's red.. no in betweens.. not maroon, not ruby... it's got to be bloody red!!! i'm gonna cool myself down now n go get some rest.. bloody long nite, to maldives n back.. dun need dis rite now.. n choosing to do dat rather than to sit ard n dwell on e topic doesn't mean i dun care.. it means i can deal wit it later coz there's no point stressin myself out further.. i dun operate like u but dat doesn't mean i dun operate at all... maybe i'm e one who needs medication... to burst dis bubble i haf ard me.. to make me worry juz dat bit more... n to stop tinkin dat things do werk out.. even in e strangest way possible.. life can be pretty twisted sometimes but i s'posed it always has to be straight lines fer u.. maybe i really am living in my own world.. maybe e glass is half empty... n maybe life isn't a bed of roses... but it certainly doesn't hurt to tink otherwise... at least dat's how i feel......
®am i really dat hard to trust?? wat e hell am i s'posed to be hiding?! geez... i've neva given anyone a reason to doubt yet dat's all dat i seem to get.. it's like i always haf a motive behind evrythin i do.. lemme juz say dat i dun haf time n i certainly dun haf any energy to play games.. (unless it's wit ppl dat i haf agendas against).. thot i made it clear dat wat u see is wat u get...? i am fairly simple.. n i totally believe wat goes around comes around... so.. why e hell wld i do somethin unbecomin??! gosh... tink i really need some rest.. my head's spinnin n i'm blabberin way too much now..
