| Your Love Style is Agape |
You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.
Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.
You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.
Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.
For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love. |
| You Are 60% Pure |
Well, you're not exactly an angel - but you're pretty darn close.
But chances are, you have a couple juicy secrets deep in your closet. |
| Your Inner Eye Color Is Green |
You're off-scale unique and creative - just like green eyes
You're peaceful, relaxed, and easy to be around
You've got an exotic flair that draws men in... with unique beauty. |
Labels: e day..
i'm in a bit traumatised now... flgt wuz gd.. to n fro.. but when we were landin into dubz, nedal, e purser, who's obviously fabulously gay; told straight to my face dat i'm a lesbian!!! n it's juz dat i dunno it yet.. or dat i'm juz suppressin it real well.. wtf?!? i mean, he said it in sucha matter-of-fact, no-nonsense kinda manner dat i wuz lost fer words!! n i wuz like, 'how e hell do u pass off someone as a lesbo??? i mean, i'm stayin wit one n i wld neva haf guessed.. din even haf an inkling until she confessed...'
n he simply said 'i can tell, honey.. i juz can....'
*gasp*
i'm simply mortified!! n it's not like i haf anythin against homosexuality.. well, mostly i dun.. coz i cldn't care less.. but i dun necessarily condone it.. it juz crosses e line when dey try to impose their skool of thots on me.. i juz tink it's against e law of nature.. n i'm sorry, but i luv men.. i can't get enuf of my bf fer cryin out loud.. it's been almost a wk since he left n i'm still havin withdrawal symptoms... n it's not like i'm attracted to his feminity.. e only shred of femininity in him is his luv fer e colour pink.. hahahah!!! not dat i haf a problem wit dat... havin said dat, no, i'm not into butches... dat's juz confusin.. i mean, if i were to eva swing dat way, i'd rather get it on wit a hot girlie-girl.. not a girl who tries so hard to be a guy coz i'd rather be wit a genuine guy in dat case.. sheeeeeesh....
tanx nedal fer screwin my mind!!!!
i'm too in luv wit myself anyways....speakin of lesbos... apparently a particular person ran into sylvia (not lesbo!!); n made up some stories abt how me n her r so close n we hate e other flatmate of ours... wtf?!?!?! seriously!!? is she in her own world or is dis a dirty tactic to play us up against each other?!? she's really positively weird i tell u... totally reminds me of e other occassion when she claimed to be close frenz wit mermaid, my fren, when she only met her once!!! n not to mention e stories she told mazen... doesn't dat juz scream psycho?!? great combo i must say... psycho-lesbo...
glad me n niza signed dat form to move out.. these kinda ppl are not gd fer yr health.. n safety...®wonderin wat kinda sub-concious vibes i'm sendin out to e world... once again, i DUN haf anythin against gays.. i dun quite care.. juz dat when dey cross e line, it's kinda hard fer anyone to be chummies.... n yes, i WILL use it against u... u freak...Labels: dubz, e day.., ppl
juz had a historic moment in my life like an hour ago... came back fm lahore n we were all at e customs, waitin to go thru, when e flight deck crew shouted.. 'guys, it's here!!'.... so we all were like lil kiddies, ran to get a view.. n i managed to catch e A380 in action.. landing no less... it wuz quite unexpected to actually see it live.. i mean, it din even haf e EK emblem on it.. (tho i've seen one durin e dubz airshow.. proud in EK colours..) it wuz still e airbus380 signage.. pardon me fer bein ovely-enthused over such a thing but honestly, it wuz quite a rush.. n to haf us all frequent flyers (so to speak) gazing in collective awe.. dat wuz sthg...
well, dey're havin these daily fly-around dubz fer 3 days i tink, startin fm yday.. it's an hr cruise onboard e 380, wit e big shots n who's-who of e company.. n our flgt wuz actually s'posed to be grounded 40mins more in lahore coz dey were s'posed to close e runway fer like 30mins.. apparently due to maintenance but i tink it's more of an inspection to see e damage e big momma mite cause upon impact.. kwahkwah... dat thing is seriously massive, n i fer one, am not lookin forward werkin onboard sucha hulk of a tin can... n i had all these imaginations of sthg actually goin wrong wit those test flgts, wit all those key-players fm e company onboard.. i mean, wat wld happen next?? a sudden demand of CEOs n managers perhaps??? maybe i'd sign up.... heee.... ok... i'm sadistic... but hey, i only had 2hrs of sleep in like more than 24hrs... so yeah, it's safe to say i'm not exactly awake rite now...on anotha note altogetha.... juz wanted to give a biiiiiig shout-out to 3 who's-who in my life... it's my momma's n hao's bifday!!!! all these while, i've always thot my mum's bifday's like 19th aug but apparently it's today!! 18th aug!! in conjunction wit hao's!!!! i've always known i'm not e best daughter ard; but to actually mistake e person who gave me life's bifday?!? holy crap?! i AM officially e worst daughter in e whole of this universe!!!!!! been tinkin abt it n e more i tink, e worse i feel.. geeez...
wat an ungrateful cad i am...but seriously, i shall put all dat disgraceful pieces of information aside to highlight on e importance of these 3 ppl...of coz;... my mum... how much more important can dat get??
no mum=no me...
see e resemblance?? rrrrrite...it's amazing how distance actually brought us closer.. back then, we cldn't even hold a decent conversation much more joke ard... it's like we're so much tolerant of one anotha n i can't even rememba e last time we had an argument.. i realised how much she means to me n how much i appreciate her.. like me, she may not be perfect but she's done a great job wit us 3 siblings under her wings.. (aka ketiak/armpits).. always worryin incessantly abt us n dad.. she's selfless n almost saint-like.. well, in my eyes, at least.. coz i tink she's trancended fm dat nagging-machine who's juz out to make our lives a living hell... witout her direct control on my life, i dun tink i'd turn out this way... wit e kinda influences all ard, i'd tank god fer her making me a late bloomer... n altho we can communicate betta, dat doesn't mean we're besties n all... (tho there wuz once she accompanied me to orchard fer a quick shopping.. she kinda invited herself but i took it as she wantin to spend more time wit me...) n not to mention dat time when she surprised me wit a spaghetti-strap tank which i so noe is too little clothe by her standards... she wuz like 'oh, i saw it on e mannequin n i noe u'd like e bling-blings on it...' she'd evry so often shower me wit lil gifts she tinks i need/like.. n dat includes some garish hair accessories as well as disastrous attires.. n i feel so touched.. n i juz can't bring myself to tell her dat i wun eva use any of em in my life.. juz can't bear to see her hurt.. n dat's y i hate a certain person to dis very day fer makin her cry.. (u bastard.. may u rot in hell... no no.. may u get eaten alive by maggots n den u eat e maggots in order to stay alive.. u worthless piece of scum eatin bacteria)
hmm, she's my mum n i luv her.. she's flesh n blood.. 'nuff said..n den there's hao... my bestest pal.. who happens to live like 2 streets away.. n even my mum/family noes him n tells me when she occassionally run into him/his family members.. my partner-in-crime fer bein late.. we're neva on time but i tink hao's e master ah... even meetin me halfway at e kopitiam near our house oso can be late... sheesh...
he's e queen bitch amongst our frenz n i luv him fer dat.. at least i can keep my sanity by bein mean n not bein nice always.. i really miss our 'exchanges'..
me: 'u tramp...'
hao: 'u slut..'
me: 'u harlot..'
hao:'u whore..'
me:'u bitch....!'
hao:'tank yew very much...'
he brings out e 'best' of me...hahahahahahaha!!! not exactly in dat manner but yeah, somewhere along dat line... he's one helluva stong guy.. oklah, maybe those strong inside kind... =P
he's been thru more than anyone else i noe yet he still manages to be him... we've known each other fer like wat? 9yrs now?? almost a decade.. can u believe dat?? still a long way to go to beat my record wit tina.. but we're gettin there.. he noes more abt e intricate things in my life coz somehow i feel safe sharin wit him my innermost thots.. n there's no need to keep up wit appearances around him coz he's seen e ugliest of me (literally, back in skool, those days before i 'bloomed'.. =P)
we've made so many other frenz, not in e same circle, yet we still fall back onto each other.. n dat's e beauty of dis frenship.. despite bein apart, e moment we 'reunite', it's all gd.. evrythin juz falls in its place n we can juz be ourselves.. juz hang loose n be as heartlanders as possible.. hehehehe...
oh, n not to mention, he whips up mean muffins n cakes... e last creation being his apple tart.. yummmmy....
i'm sure he's a saint in e eyes of his family members coz dat's exactly how i'd feel...ok... i said i'll mention 3 ppl in my life n by dis stage of dis long post, u must be wonderin who's e third.. well, last but certainly not least, it's my gunglue!!! jasminah rashid... muahahahahah.... i 'christened' u now..
first of all, my apologies fer bein so bloody belated.. a grand total of 6days no less!!! wanted to make it a week but i got werk tmr.. so yeah.... LOL!!!!! 
anotha classic sentosa moment...dearest gunglue, u're a brilliant ball of energy that neva, i repeat, neva fail to cheer me up... we can juz be ditzy n kootchsy n kiddy n not even give a care in e world wat others tink... okie, maybe not in e presence of others lah.. but leave us be n we'd come up wit stupid antics dat always results wit me havin sore cheeks.. due to laughin too much.. (flashback on sentosa) n i noe u haf a soft spot fer me, coz u'd neva throw any tantrums on me... hahahah!!! but hey, u noe i haf a soft spot fer u too rite? u can neva do any wrong.. to me; at least.. n juz like wit hao, u're real.. n i can be real wit u as well.. no need to haf any guards abt anythin coz afterall, u haf a spot fer me, rememba?? n i noe, no matter how childish i'd act, u'd still smile n grin instead of frownin n givin a disgusted look... unlike some ppl... we are after all, young only once..
but all dat doesn't mean u can dismiss jas as juz anotha kooky character... she's got depth.. depth dat u'd see only if u spend time wit her n see thru all of her mischief.. n dat's why i luv dis girl.. she doesn't waste precious seconds dwellin on negative things.. she's always ready to go n full of animated gestures.. an entertainment on its own.. hahahahahaha... i strongly believe evryone out there shld haf a gunglue of their own!!! =)i luv each n evry one of these guys fer bein juz them.. each special, each unique... n each touched my life in their own different ways.. so. if u mess wit em.. u die!! dey are leos after all.. plus; u'd haf e bull to handle as well...®not necessarily e way i wanna express myself in words.. but it's almost there.. n rite now, my world is startin to sway.. e effects of too lil sleep.... n of coz, withdrawal symptoms... hehehe..Labels: dubz, e day.., to you
okie.... it's been a grand total of 18days since i last flew... n i'm soooooo not lookin forward to e flgt later tonite... geeezz.........® been all alone at home... where haf all e ppl gone?? tink i'm kinda losin it... hahahahahahaLabels: random rants
®wonderin if u can actually relate to dis, baby...All my bags are packed
Im ready to go
Im standin here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin
Its early morn
The taxis waitin
Hes blowin his horn
Already Im so lonesome
I could dieSo kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that youll wait for me
Hold me like youll never let me go
cause Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to goTheres so many times Ive let you down
So many times Ive played around
I tell you now, they dont mean a thing
Evry place I go, Ill think of you
Evry song I sing, Ill sing for you
When I come back, Ill bring your wedding ringSo kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that youll wait for me
Hold me like youll never let me go
cause Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to goNow the time has come to leave you
One more time
Let me kiss you
Then close your eyes
Ill be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I wont have to leave alone
About the times, I wont have to sayOh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that youll wait for me
Hold me like youll never let me go
cause Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to goBut, Im leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe, I hate to goWords and music by john denverLabels: lyrics
wuz it juz a dream...?
all e anticipation fizzled to bittersweet dread..
cldn't stop e day turnin into nights..
had no power against e dates flyin pass..
it's all in my head.. n it hurts so bad..
knowin dat it's back to bein alone..
all by myself,
lonesome in dis barren land...
no more silly arguments..
no more bickerings..
no more volkswagen-beetle pinchings..
no more bitings; playful or not..
no more wrestlin-style sparrin..
no more late-night movies..
no more pigging-out like, erm; pigs...
no more 'juz-hangin-out's...
no more cook-outs...
no more gettin frustrated/naggin abt e mess..
no more nookies...
no more camel-breath...
no more gettin annoyed/irritated by your 'charm'..
no more juz bein us...
no more........
10days came n went juz like dat..
n no one noes when i can lay my eyes on your hazel-browns again..
stickin wit u is exactly wat i'm gonna do..
coz it's all so natural when we're togetha..
trust me..
u haf my word on dat..
n i'm holdin u to yours..
so, pls baby..
come back soon........®
“Distance never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there. But whenever I start feeling sad cuz I miss you; I remind myself how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss.”Labels: dubz, to you
so... i've been a gd girl n went fer all 5 sessions i had wit dr.shurong... kinda felt a bit sad i had no more sessions tho.. hee..... hope to hang out wit e gd doc again... it wuz so nice juz to share things n she even showed me her makeover pics n her interviews wit e chinese channel.. phoenix i tink... all's goin sooo gd fer her.. wit her apartment n her HUMMER!!!!! when she casually mentioned she drives a hummer, i wuz like waaaaaaaahhhhh.....!!!!
muahahahahah....
yep, we can soooooo be nbf... hehehehe...
but seriously, acupunture works... so dun be afraid to try! =)
on anotha note altogetha, i lost my wisdom... hahahahaha!!! wat wisdom?? nah, i went to get my wisdom tooth removed... e plan wuz to remove e left one which is buggin me since it's juz growin out of e gums.. instead, e one on e right got pulled out n i din even get a medical letta fer it... me bein e wuss juz left witout a fuss n went to drop by at suz's... n by 'drop by', it wuz more of like 'surprise!! i'm at yr doorstep!!' =P
she wuz studyin fer her upgrade... wld sure luv to pop by fer her graduation..
newayz, she made a call to e dentist coz we figured he liked her more than me n talked him into givin e letta.. coz accordin to him, he cld fax it over to e person in charge but we wanted to haf a copy fer our own reference... so yeah, got e letta n she had to sit down while he explained to her e differences in e procedure fer hers n mine... sorry babes!! hee....
well, dun forget me once u move k? n congrats are in order fer december, i s'pose?? heee....... *grinz*®i seriously need to make new frenz... evryone's leavin or is oredi gone... sigh...... i can sense a depression comin on....Labels: going-ons..
i'm too in luv wit myself anyways....
see e resemblance?? rrrrrite...
anotha classic sentosa moment...
on anotha note altogetha, i lost my wisdom... hahahahaha!!! wat wisdom?? nah, i went to get my wisdom tooth removed... e plan wuz to remove e left one which is buggin me since it's juz growin out of e gums.. instead, e one on e right got pulled out n i din even get a medical letta fer it... me bein e wuss juz left witout a fuss n went to drop by at suz's... n by 'drop by', it wuz more of like 'surprise!! i'm at yr doorstep!!' =P